Golden Brick Attack!

Whoa.. Talk about God raining golden bricks!!

So far this year God has TOTALLY changed my life, and who I thought I was. Everything I thought I was going to be or do is now in the dust I walk on. In high school I was set. I was going to go to EMT school then succeed in Fire Academy, then Paramedic school and eventually become a Firefighter/Paramedic in the LA county. I would make good money, have great benefits, enjoy my job, be independant, and educated. After I had lived out my independace then I would meet a perfect Godly man and get married at around 25 or 26.


Ha Ha....

Once I moved up to Oroville God had to throw a boulder at me to get me to realize that was my perfect plan WASN'T His perfect plan.. which seems to be more important than mine.

This past month has been one of the hardest of my life. Christ has tossed so many bricks, and even a few boulders. He has revealed a few things about my future that I never ever would have seen coming. He is constantly amazes me. The lessons of trust, and patience seem to be my favorite since I have "learned" them more times than I can count.

Honestly, the future terrifys me. Oh me of little faith.. He says he's going to do something and promises to walk me through and yet I'm so surprised when I see the signs of Him working in my life.
I've always seen myself as a independant woman. I mean I never really 'needed' a boyfriend to lean on. I have always enjoyed spending time by myself. I 've always looked forward to living alone, and now that I do it is obvious God is preparing me to be a wife a lot sooner that I thought.

I'm not complaining I swear. I'm just can't figure out whether I am terrified or amazed.



Now I know what fearing God means... ouch.